Tuesday, September 28

Last Words of David

I want to see the light of morning
sunrise bursting forth in a clear and cloudless sky
light that brings refreshing rain
shower blessings and life

But thorns may be around
one must be armed to chop them down

Light can call forth fire
consume the torns forever

The Spirit of the Lord
spoke through David son of Jesse
A ruler of righteousness
rules in the fear of God

Please let me see sunrise bursting forth
and rain falling down
in the land I hate
but grown to love
my Malaysia

© Joel Yap

Friday, September 24

Foto Friday

There was a power break down. 
Namewee made a video; 
I played with my camera.

First time trying long exposures 
shutter speed set to 20 seconds

Saturday, September 18

After a Year

The Earth was here
when your first step
In darkness
I only rejection met
my world stood still
as my life in chaos

Earth completed her course
in our loudest silence
the Sun now as far
its moon now as dark
You were gone
gravities brought you back
I went lost
on a journey still progress
without you guidance
only wood pieces after shipwreck
thank God I found
by lighthouses ready built

Now many things have changed
will I end bitterness harbourage?
will you start showing mercy?
allow my forgiveness?

I went wrong
please let me make right
give me a chance
to forget your promises

Now your leave is here
again
When will you ever face me?
I might cry and wonder
another year

© Joel Yap

Friday, September 17

Foto Friday


Equipment, material things
how meaningless
if not used for greater callings

Sunday, September 12

Through Your Eyes

I see a friend
one whom people liked
so promising, and without pride
Sigh! gone dim-
the brightest lights

Even angels fall
what more sheep go lost

I bore the sight and I cried
as I saw me through your eyes
A glimpse of your sadness
when you looked at my madness

So this is how pain feels
when you cared for me back then

Thank you for loving me
my family and friend

© Joel Yap

Tuesday, September 7

Semester 1 over

Just took my final paper today, which marks the end of my very first semester in the School of Health Sciences, Nanyang Polytechnic.

Just like that, 16 weeks of classes and 3 weeks of hospital attachment has ended. Just like that, I am one more step closer to becoming a nurse. My memory of the first step is still so vivid, the step that was so difficult to take, followed by various consecutive steps. So many changes, so much change. So many ups and downs along the way.

During this first semester I've seen wonders and miracles on a personal level. Experienced providence and blessing, not forgetting fulfilled promises. Also reminded that, unfortunately, not all promises are fulfilled all the time.

My eyes were opened to a glimpse of the world. I see the things that make it so ugly: Materialism, Conditional Love, Racism, Sexism, Ungratefulness and more. I see hurting people in need of love and understanding. I see them wandering in this fallen world, searching for temporary relieves. Alas, I see loneliness in myself also. Thus am reminded that no man is an island.

The feasibility of this journey depended on faith for financial providence. And faith paid off for my fees and bills. I really thank all who helped in their own ways to open this door for me. Not going to mention names here but will not forget any of them.

Time to take a rest, enjoy my holiday and get prepared for Semester 2!

Friday, September 3

Foto Friday



You were right: 
you can not always by my side 

I find pain in letting go 
but this time must come 
since you long gone 
now I lay you down 
keep the memories