If You Knew Me

If you knew me
thanks for your acceptance
If you knew me
truly
leaving was natural 

If you have raised me
you did a good job
the rest was my fault
If I have blamed you
great sin I have done

If I have loved you
have you loved me back?
If I expected not hoped
then I have not loved

If I crossed boundaries
sorry for the ignorance
But if I wanted to make love with you
let every bone in my body break
at the sound of my heart of glass broke
before turning into stone

If you gave me too much grace
my actions were a disgrace

If there were another second chance
I would go through the darkness
quiet and sensibly

If you showed me another friendship
I shall be wealthier than ever

© Joel yap